This thing we call our ego [1]
As you remember yourself, you may be surprised. This ego self is very loud. He or she is the only you you’ve ever known. As an infant, you began creating him or her as a response to your environment. As a third dimensional being, you understood immediately what was necessary in order to receive what you desired. You were looking for love.
You emerged from a bath of love, swimming in the knowledge of yourself and everyone else. You opened your eyes in a world that was not the same. Although you felt each being in the room, there was a barrier. They did not feel you and the understanding of each other was gone. You began to forget.
Although you recognized love and felt love, you knew this was no longer a universal knowing. Separation began - first you from your own body and then you from all of the “others”. There came names and definitions - separators.
These names and ideas were taught to you by the beings you could see with your physical eyes, and so you listened. When you did so, following the rules they taught, you received physical expressions of what you longed for – love. Smiles, hugs, laughter, food, care, warmth and comfort seemed to come in response to things that you “did”. You began through all of this to define and create your ego.
As a young human, you were immersed in your ego, trying on this one and that one, watching and learning and yearning for adoration from these souls you were with. You began then to define yourself by their reactions to you, rather than by your own internal knowing. These “others” became reflections in which you could see yourself.
You did not forget completely who you were – that is why you skipped and ran and laughed and tumbled and played and smiled relentlessly. You were still filled with the expectation for love. So deep was your knowing of truth, that it took more than a decade for you to forget.
Somewhere before your second decade as a human, you gave up. A new way to physically give and receive love was introduced and you became sexual. This sort of trumped everything else. It felt just like it had in the place from which you came. Sex became your focus. You may or may not have called it love, but you knew you had discovered again, truth. You eagerly soaked in these new rules and patterns; you wanted to learn how to get more of this sex. It felt like home.
Waking up from our slumber now, we have given our ego a bad name. Our ego is us, here in this 3D world. It was created by us, so that we’d stay here and function at this vibratory level. It was fed and nurtured along by every new definition of love we discovered. We had been looking for validation, and with our emotional habits, (our “ego”), we got it. Our ego gives us the reinforcement we perceive is necessary. It is not “bad” or “good” – it either serves us or does not.
Awake now, we realize the truth. We are conscious of our divinity. This version of us is not where we begin and end, we are infinite, powerful, multi-dimensional beings enjoying a human experience. This body we occupy is one we will transform into a new vibratory pattern without having to leave it to do so. We came to do this, and the ego has been a necessary component of the process. The ego is the only way we could define ourselves here.
We have a new definition now and it is love. Love does not look like a specific answer or body type or action or reaction. Love looks like it all. It is the air we breathe, the trees that shelter us, the arms around us and the rush of emotion coursing through us when we recognize truth.
This feeling, these chills are where we began. Our source is love. You are a physical manifestation of truth. When you arrived, you knew who you were. It is time to remember again. You are love.
It is you who you’ve been searching for.