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cancer woke me up!

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I was diagnosed with cancer in October of 2011.  It was strange... It was like I already knew.  I had moved from Detroit, MI to Bend OR, with a feeling that I had to be here for some reason.  I had this strange feeling like time was running out. I moved here with my small broken family knowing no one totally following my heart in 2010. My children and I were living in a DV shelter, I was on the path of finding stable housing and work for myself and my little ones when I was slammed with the diagnosis. Modulo Blastoma, I had a craniotomy Oct,20,2011. During the time between Detroit and before going into surgery, I had prolific dreams and visions that had led me to start following my heart or "soul path". After the surgery I was thrown in to a sort of "mania" I was having audio and visual hallucinations. Or so I thought.  After some time of craziness of being terrified certain and uncertain constantly changing every 5 min I voluntarily went in to a mental ward in hopes that I might get the answers to why I was getting these strange visions and info downloads. I was there for less than 24 hours when I was asked to leave, They told me what was happening to me was not mania or psychosis.  I ran from chemo and Radiation but when CPS told me that if I didn't comply with my doctors wishes to treat they would keep me from my kids I broke down and endured 31 days of radiation and chemo together, then agreed to continue treatment.  The visions and messages stopped!  I didn't dream.  Today I am half way threw chemo and CPS is out of the picture so I have decided to stop treatment.  I'm starting to see my purpose again.  I know there is an awakening, it's real and I am so glad that I'm not alone!  Thank you thank you thank you to all who are getting the word out.

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