Reading my past blogs now is completely different than what was in those moments, it looks a lot like a programming in itself. Humans can go from 1 to 2, its like a split in consciousness, what has been was never as I though it to be. How can someone see something that is not there, we can feel... maybe experience things that go in utter chaos before going good in finding the self the soul self. We are born and have this one line of consciousness the soul, aware of, and can go to being self aware, and from intensive pressure on the being, what would be soul shattering as corruption there would be a surplus of what is normal for a being and from that One we would go to Two. There is an explanation for this One and Two but I am not aware of its existence as of yet, but it is not always a good thing, it can be a blessing or a complete curse, but once we split the one, we can never get to one again. Trauma is one of the key causes that people get to 2 and from there we can get programmed and contained in many ways. Reality and living gets a lot harder so the being searches for love while they may have unconditional love unknowingly. We can't seem to get things right from that point, we go trough so much that even help from the outside can't even get trough to the being. But there is always a point in time when our true potentials rises, that spark ignites the light within our being, and it can get so strong really fast and week again as fast as it goes up. This might be what creates that crack in the soul by which our original light that would be sealed in a stronghold within can leak out that seam that can never be sealed, I have been looking for many ways to seal that in but every time the big "The Light" get's to None "It's the brick wall, living dead, roaming endless seas, neutralizing the senses limited for beings" We loose focus of living in the feed "The Light" That which keeps us going, holds us strong within and at One.