There’s a line from a Star Wars movie that *almost* encapsulated how I felt last night. It was a strange night.
“I felt a great disturbance in the Force, as if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror and were suddenly silenced. I fear something terrible has happened.”
For the past few days I’ve been feeling rather strange. My heart has been beating like a bass drum. It was a strained, fiery type of beating but I never felt like I was in any danger. This same thing happened to me last summer and I was much less accustomed to it. There were some nights I was certain I was having a heart attack. I’m a little more enlightened now, and believe that these are the effects of solar flares.
I guess I woke up on Monday morning feeling a little “off.” There’s not really any other way to describe it other than something in the air just didn’t feel right. I ended up taking the afternoon off of work. I shouldn’t have but I was unable to shake that nagging feeling in my stomach that said I needed to get out of there this afternoon. So, I went grocery shopping and picked up a few things on the other side of the town in which I work. I rarely get over to that side of town anymore, so it was nice to check a few things off my extended to-do list.
I came home and relaxed, sat outside for a little bit and cooked supper. Josh’s brother and a friend came over for a little bit and we had fun. As they were getting ready to leave I felt a pain in my head. It was along the crown of my head, but seemed to be coming from my skull/brain. I’m not certain. It was like a current of electricity was running a short distance along the crown of my skull. I stumbled around, looking for my amethyst merkaba. It was in the bedroom. Josh went and got it for me as I wasn’t sure I could walk to get it myself.
I held that for a little while and it calmed me down. Then I took a hot, Himalayan salt bath using one ofAtaraxia Holistic’s relaxation bath fizzies. Something like this had happened once before, but this time it was a little different. I sank down so that I was in water up to my neck. I felt my sacral chakra activate and process a little while. But mostly I just laid there in the water. I was being guided by my team (of angels & spirit guides) the whole time, as well as Jesus, Buddha and Isis who I asked to join me. They led me through what I needed to do, although I don’t have much memory of what it was now.
I remember sitting up at one point, being guided to drink water and felt hands help me to tilt the glass into my mouth. They told me that I was drinking water from Gaia, and it was very restoring. I thanked Gaia and my team profusely – I was so excited – then focused back on my bath. Still sitting up I was holding the amethyst merkaba in my hand and a piece of quartz in the other hand. I was bringing in a large amount of light (I believe that’s what the bath was all about – not processing fear like the last one) and they asked me what I wanted to do with it. I said “send it to the places in the world which need it most” someone said “your wish is my command.” I said, “is it your command, or your pleasure?” we all laughed.
I said that the quote from the beginning of the article almost sums up what I feel. Here’s what’s different. I don’t think that the voices have been silenced. I don’t feel – entirely – as if something terrible has happened. I am most certainly saddened and horrified at the bombings in Boston, but it’s happening around the world every day. I also encourage everyone to look into the facts of what happened in Boston. I don’t recommend you turn on your TV to get that information. I don’t know about you, but when I first heard about what happened in Boston, something felt “off”.
While the continued bombings around the world is terrible, I feel like a “high-profile” bombing such as the one in Boston will set the stage for a giant evolutionary leap for humanity. There’s a quote from Mister Roger’s that I’ve seen circulating the internet yesterday:
And it’s true. By helping other’s we set the stage for those actions to come back to us through the Laws of the Universe. We’ve seen what fighting does – it rips apart families and destroys cities, weddings, and countless other unnecessary things. When we will give the other option a try? Do something nice for someone each day. Make a point to see and share the everyday beauty of our magnificent world. We’re not going to change the world in a day, and we won’t even change ourselves in a day – but if we all work together we can get a lot more accomplished.
