One of the hardest things for me to accept was the fact of who and what I AM. Every since the mid 1990's, I have realized that there is much much more to me than meets the eye. My environment did not support this fact, but you have.
I remember when I first discovered that God/Goddess is a real tangable living energy. I had read in the Bible that, "those who seek me with all thier heart, mind and soul shall find me". I shut my self off from the world and searched for God dilligently. Every moment I was woke, I studied in and everything that professed to lead me to God. Every woke moment.
With the combination of literature, gospel music, church broadcast, I was able to peek into Heaven. The day I saw God face to face, THE LIGHTS IN MY HOUSE WENT OUT! I called the power company and they had no explination as to the power outage. I began to get afraid. Something did not want me to know God and attempted to make fear lead me back to the world. Days later, I got in two fights, my daughter was chased and shot, she was 11, and thank GOD she is okay. I begin to loose alot. It worked; I was afraid to mess with the God stuff, too painful.
Lack of love (so I assumed) was the excuse I used to experience all the uglyness of self hatred. I have saught Love from the time I can remember, along with acceptance. Ive been able to dip my fingers in Love and taste the sweet flavor, it was like getting a sample at Sams or something. Like when I was a little gurl an tasted water from a well; so sweet, fresh and pure.
NOW, I have so much Love from my Galactic Family, I HAVE to go out and spread it. When Im full of Love, it spills out. If I attempt to contain the Love, I fell like Im not being fair to the Universe. I feel like Im not being fair to myself. I must Love. I have to Love.
Its also a joy to be told that I love you by others and know for a FACT there is not another senister motive behind it. Not for ego sake, not for sexual gratification (so called beauty can be a curse), manipulation, self gratification, ect., not for control but for no other reason than because, they too, are Love. Realize Love is new to me, and love in the romantic sense is yet to be experienced.
Alot of times the things I wanna say naturally come out in "language" so I struggle with words at time. I also received that gift in the mide 90's. Language to me means Heavenly Language. It is as natural to me as breathing.
Thanks for bearing me up so that I can bear others up. Thanks for allowing me to be me. That has NEVER happened to me before. Thank you for allowing me to stand before you as Love, bare and naked out of the cloak of flesh, and not the bad actress the world created. I no longer hold my head down, lookin to the ground because I just could not see myself in Heaven.
Thank Osiris for transversing the depts of hell to save my Soul. He (Osiris) reached down in hell and saw me worthy to save. I understand all this now. The Gods are real and generations to come will know and understand this fact for it is a part of my destiny to educate, validate and reinstate TRUTH.
Even though I have billions of reasons to quench my Love, I cannot. For, all those things got me to the place I AM now, right here in Heaven where I belong. Yes, Nageeta quit the acting business for good.
Love Nageeta
"theres nothing better than love, what in the world could you ever be thinkin of; its better by far, so let yourself reach for that star, and g n matter how far to the one you love (ME, ITS ME I LOVE thereby loving YOU)."
