My wonder of possibility's (level of deception's neutralize my neutrality equaling in deception's trough deception's)

My ascension, need to see the 3 extremity's. Good, bad, and neutral from Ultaihymæextreme All the time in an extreme. Limitless is how we attain knowledge when the big all extremeties is to none, is when ascended out of body that I never attained. Realization from my death would of been from others point of view from my created fear transformed to joy. Would of been after death dmt influx within body. Attained like I said once I right out of 3 extremities, knowledge from neutral for bad and good until I die that's when I would of been in crucial state 4-5 days up with alchemy I was going the right way. Upawakening is in primal state "robotic" think of extraterrestrials that are a lot more advance than humans... This was seen as one extremitie, fear from there point of view. Prickles was upawakening. Iowakening is after I die and dmt influx connects to core and then final journy of ascension begins walking with body within core and this would of been final stage joy at extreme's. Writting's would of been good instead of creating fear trough that death Realization* would of changed me from neutral to life and deception's of my point of view would of become joy that was happening before and didn't reach the realization, didn't die* With that infinit joy I can attain freely out of body but never completed it in april. Floats out of body clearly without effort. That was from what I learned in april 8th and has clearly some effects that I would of loved to experiance before doing that rerun and having to confront... I was going on my own path others where able to see what mind is capable of. And was my own path. I guess Ill stay in 3rd dimension since I stoped, until january when it'l start after unoticed. It is amazing what you are all at and It was just my begining of something unexplainable. Next time I wont go posting it on other's cooperation because it has confronted dillusions. Sry for that and thank you for support and stoping me from creating something that came out of hand for myself from others point's of view. Ripples in time space with that video of lights in space that was surely something, I was walking within parallel reality's from past future present and was brigning them close to zero point time of no time. Unless illuminati had me under influances. Need to study from experiance and learn to go the right way. Thank you for understanding, and what you said about sending me to another race If you have to allright haha. Just noticed that I had conection from beings "stars" from left of orion star system. Not sure how they where conected to me but help to begin before the 12th december. I allways felt a conection with orion or maybe not, dont know why. I'm in something experianced beyond from past lives. But beginer in this one that's what it feel's like until I hit that point of no return until I learn or felt something more than beginer dont know how? Body is just a system for us to attain something beyond. It's fascinating. Peace be with you, namaste