When I first came to the internet in the mid 90,s, it was because of the pain of a relationship that was from my heart, and his ego. I could not understand what I had did wrong, or why I was not good enough for the person. I only wanted to be loved unconditionally. I throught I had found my true love (did not know or understand Twin Flame behavior). For 6 whole years, I was in the only person in love in the relationship. I may of been highly favored, but not loved. The day I heard him say; "I love you but I am not in love with you" I almost committed suicide. I guess I woke up too early. He did not understand me or my gifts. He tolerated it, but, saw it as a sign of mental illness instead of Spiritual behavior. I had the fantasy in my head until coming here, it was not as intense, but a small spark of that hope still remained. I have put that to rest after all these years. For at least 10 of the last years, I assumed he would one day realize who and what I was and would then love me to infinity. The last the time I seen him, his last worlds was, "I will be back, promise". That was 15 years ago. No such thing is going to happen today or tomorrow. I know this in my heart now. I wish him nothing but the best. And, Im sorry for assuming he was my better half, I only saught to give the love that is inside of my heart and nothing else. He got me to a place of self esteem and Im forever grateful for that. No one on earth has fakely loved me such as he had. lol
Today, the Twin Flame has a meaning and also I know for a fact it is a reality and not just a self induced fantasy. Yes, just as I assumed back then, there is another half of me residing on earth. This time Love is on the positive of my being here. I know who I think it is, but, the FEAR of rejection AGAIN keeps me from being more open about the situation. The pain is so intense for me, I dont want to feel that intense painful feeling again. I wont consider suicide, but, I will be disappointed because of all the men on the earth, my assumed Twin Flame really really really feels correct this time. Pray that this matter is solved for me, I deserve to know the truth. Its my time to be happy. If not, well hay, the fantasy was the best one ever.
Love Nageeta
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Feel it to release it
Its very important to feel your feelings especially when its uncomfortable so that you release and transform this energy. Alot of lightworkers do this becuase it does not feel good so they stuff this energy back down into their lower chakra's. Its important to feel these feelings so as they are released the higher energies of Love can enter producing more joy. Surrender Let go and Breathe through it.. All our Love Mother and Father God
Welcome Home into,The Kingdom of Heaven on Earth=Heart, We Love you Unconditionally!!
Thank you. Its because of
Thank you. Its because of Kindred Spirits like you two that allow me to me; the good, bad, and the ugly. Yes, that as been one of the reasons my Love ducts were clogged up. The good report is they run free now. When i meditate, I see this red river flowing insync. I used to get a vision of a clogged like, not any more.
Love Nageeta
you are worth your effort
you are worth more than your weight in golden particles of light, and so LOVED. not everyone is strong enough to see all your light. trust in your wonderful self.
Thank you very much. I am
Thank you very much. I am grateful for the rejection; i may not of been here if it never would of happened. I thank the Universe.
Love Nageeta