Suzanne Poulson Spooner ~ A Perspective On Suicide By A NDE And By My Father Ron ~ A Collaborative Report From Angelic View’s Blog And Suzanne ~ 26 June 2012

 From Suzanne: I am sharing a post from my friend, Angelic View  It is a NDE ~ Near Death Experience ~ of a woman who committed suicide but came back to share, as best as she could, what her experience in passing was like. I hope that by sharing these events with you, who have lost a loved one to suicide or any means of physical departure, you can have a peace of heart and mind that all is well, they are well and no one truly dies. 

Some of you may know my father, Ron, chose to end his life in 1991. When TAUK first manifested I had no idea what TAUK was or that I would teach people all over the globe to connect to their loved ones, angels, guides, High Selves and God. All I knew in those first few days was I had a connection again to my sweet, loving dad ~ 18 years after his passing. Once I understood that this connection could not be broken and we could TAUK anytime, I started to ask questions about his passing and his suicide experience. Naturally, I hoped that he had not suffered and that he had been welcomed into God’s arms quickly and without judgement.

The first message he gave me about his passing was quite mind expanding for me. Although at the time I felt in my heart an All Loving God could never punish one of His children who was sick with the experience of Hell, I had to also weigh those who said suicide is a sin with the obvious out come.

A few weeks later, my best friend Susan asked me to ask my dad what ‘Transition’ is. It was with this answer where he felt ready to explain in more detail his passing experience. Today after reading Angelic View’s post, I could feel my father close and knew this was in divine order of my readiness to understand what he experienced further. He is after all, my dad. He is now, as was in the physical,  my protector and friend.  Here is my re-post of that first message from my dad on his passing, then the message on transition. Following that is the post, “I Had to Live” found on Angelic View’s blog. At the end of “I Had to Live” is a link to “Source”. This link will take you to the original post, quite interesting.

The First Message From My Father on His Suicide, received October 2009 :

Dad, can I ask a question? Yes. What was it like right after you passed? It was like I made a giant flight to heaven and I landed in this beautiful garden. I saw everyone I loved. I made a history of my life. I talked to God about his love for me, we reviewed my life and we talked about His love for all His children. I rested awhile and then I started Gods plan for expressing His desire for self love. I don’t understand. I made huge mistakes. I never allowed God in my life. I have made the decision to find God in all I do. I am so happy. I find Gods love everywhere I look. I have His glory in my heart now. Dad can you spend time with anyone over there? Yes, I spent time with my first grade teacher. She taught me about loving myself. I also spend time with little animals that made the journey home. I help them transition here and they help me to learn that I make the choice of love and compassion and ultimate goodness helping His creatures in their ultimate homecoming.

Dad over there do you look the same as you did here? I look the same as I did in my twenties. I think I looked my best then. Figure I could enjoy my youthful body while here. Can you change your appearance? Yes, I can change my appearance every day if I want to. Anything is possible here.

Susan’s Question and Answer on Transition, received October or November 2009:

Can you explain what you mean by the word “Transition”? It is when a soul enters heaven. His glory enters their soul. God repairs where lost love has been forgotten. He knows that some souls have accepted the belief of hell. For those souls, God expresses his patience and waits while they express their free will, until the soul asks to be with God. Then God helps them to review their life. And when the soul has rested awhile, it decides to create its own heaven. The nice thing God does is allow each soul to decide how it might learn so that its’ progression expresses itself exactly as the soul imagines. Did you choose to go to hell? Yes, I thought I was not worthy of God’s love. I lasted awhile then re-evaluated the love I had for God. Delightfully I was jetted out of my hell to an expressed form of love, like the garden I told you about. Then I rested while I expressed my idea of heaven.

Message from My Dad,  June 25th, 2012, After Reading Angelic View’s Post:

June 25, 2012

Dad

[Hi Dad, I thought you might visit today!] I love you so very much. I sat beside you while you read the NDE of the suicide. [I thought so. At the beginning of TAUK we talked about what your experience was like right after you past. Was yours also similar to the account I read?] It was very similar. It was the same in that I still felt ‘alive’ even though I knew my body was not. I was very surprised about that!

However, I felt the need to punish myself for the pain that I had caused and the pain I was causing directly related to my suicide. I was given the opportunity to create my own Hell and I did so. God, or that golden light that was described in the NDE you read, was always beside me. I needed to honor my pain and that is how I manifested that experience.

There is no ‘real’ Hell Suzy. I know you know this. Finding my way to self love required a stop into this imagined reality though. It taught me to love myself as God has always loved me. In the highest form of love, God sat with me in my hell until I was ready to move on. To the person of the NDE you read, she felt mostly tired of her existence. For me, I felt total unworthiness of God’s love.

As I decided to move on, God asked me to create a place of beauty. This is the park I told you about early on in TAUK”s infancy. Here, God & I blended our energies and like the author of the NDE, I knew my love was real and greatly returned. So in my journey, I took a detour. I hope your heart and all of humanity knows  how much you and everyone are loved by God and Creator. In my past life, I was your dad with all the proverbial warts and wrinkles. In my current existence, I am your Papa in Divine Love.

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