yup.

its such horseshit that you cant even get a job because of the person you have to go through
is afraid of the new. that theyre consumed in their thoughts, and their emotions, and less
with their actual feelings. they identify with their thoughts and emotions of how they
perceive you. oh the human condition as it stands today. yes its changing, but theres
also others who are contracted to be in resistance for a while.

does it bother you that i swore? good. get offended. maybe itll wake your ass up a little.
im sure everyone who likes reading from the enlightened perspective prefers it to be
curse word free, you know, like a cloud! but, if you focus on the cloud, you miss the
fact that you even understand the beauty that resides in the cloud, from the fact
that we deal with accidents, or even anger, that life isnt this pretty
cloudy, floaty , cuddlebug existence that you like to paint for yourselves.
or the fact that you like to focus on the future events, that you hope for a better life
someday, somewhow. im not saying that we arent going to have a better life in the long run
because we will, but first we have to deal with all the turmoil, the muddy waters.
have to go to the abyss of being  and deal with all the SHIT that lies in there.

for example, the reason why marriages fail, why boys and girls breakup. we beings
get into arguments in the first place. identifying with the egos fear of death
being the root cause of all of this turmoil in the first place. im not saying that
you the reader are in fear, but i am saying that the conditioning itself,
the fact that beings identify with their unconscious reactive state of being
or their conditioning, their egomind , is the reason why were even having to deal
with all this upheaval in the first place, its stuff like this, that keeps
me awake at night, or even for days.

again its not pretty, and im not happy about it, beings stating that the entire
experience of it being always in joy , is putting you through the spiritual ringer.
a part of it also puts you back into the identification with the egos focus
on the good times of the past, and the potentially good times lying ahead in the future.
but its necessary, because itll drive you into your being, of where you are in joy at the core
and that you have no problem with dealing with being upset about all thats taking place.
beings have been taught that being with your emotional body as it is, isnt tolerated.
this is a load of fucking horseshit. i spit in your face metaphorically speaking.
this destructive process were going through is absolutely necessary as ive said before.

i find it absolutely bullshit that some places wont hire, or will hire on a temporary
basis because theyre working with the loopholes in the system. ive been fired from a job
because and i quote " you're the lowest on the totem pole." Nice eh? or how about the fact
that we have beings in government who have LAVISH vacations throughout the year.
eat terrific food, arent on food stamps, have awesome cars, they literally have
the best of the best, because they were motivated to compete for it.
so because of their willingness to compete, theyre deemed worthy to experience that
lavish lifestyle, yet those who were motivated to compete in another form, arent worthy
to experience that lavish lifestyle. its absolutely disgusting to me.

we can thank their willingness to not speak publically about all the knowledge
that they are aware of, for all of this. when i speak of "them" or "their"
im not solely speaking of humans either. obviously they get a kick out of the fact
that its all coming up to the surface to be revealed, seeing as how they knew it
would happen inevitably. they obviously get a kick out of putting neurotoxins
in the water supply. or making medications that can kill you, or alter your brain
chemistry permanently. honestly, their souls have no problem with the experience
of what is coming to them, thats just how it is, but it doesnt mean that theyre
aware of exactly whats going to happen to them detail by detail. oh how beautifuly
disgusting selective awareness is :) keep at heart that due to the fact that
we deal with selective awareness in our consciousness , we also deal with
ignorance. its from this ignorance, as innocent as it is, that we infact
suffer. anyone who tells you otherwise, is full of shit. im not saying the
suffering isnt laughable, because it is, laughter heals, but so does
all the pain and greiving, upheavals, and all the feelings and emotions we
deal with constantly. im saying this so as to bring it to your attention that solely
being focused on the experience of solely laughter as the only way you heal is
a delusion.