One of the hardest things for me to accept was the fact of who and what I AM. Every since the mid 1990's, I have realized that there is much much more to me than meets the eye. My environment did not support this fact, but you have.

 

I remember when I first discovered that God/Goddess is a real tangable living energy.  I had read in the Bible that, "those who seek me with all thier heart, mind and soul shall find me". I shut my self off from the world and searched for God dilligently. Every moment I was woke, I studied in and everything that professed to lead me to God. Every woke moment.

 

With the combination of literature, gospel music, church broadcast, I was able to peek into Heaven. The day I saw God face to face, THE LIGHTS IN MY HOUSE WENT OUT!  I called the power company and they had no explination as to the power outage. I began to get afraid.  Something did not want me to know God and attempted to make fear lead me back to the world. Days later, I got in two fights, my daughter was chased and shot, she was 11, and thank GOD she is okay. I begin to loose alot. It worked; I was afraid to mess with the God stuff, too painful.

 

 

Lack of love (so I assumed) was the excuse I used to experience all the uglyness of self hatred. I have saught Love from the time I can remember, along with acceptance. Ive been able to dip my fingers in Love and taste the sweet flavor, it was like getting a sample at Sams or something. Like when I was a little gurl an tasted water from a well; so sweet, fresh and pure.

 

How to De-Hypnotize a Chicken and Break Free of Cabal Control

Maurice Turmel PhD - "Dr Moe"

 

Here I am at 7am in the morning, wide awake, waiting for the other shoe to drop.  I’ve opened myself up to everything and a part of me is definitely scared.  I have to trust now.  I have to trust that the world out there is a reflection of the new world I now hold inside.

 

I have surrendered! I have let go! I know I can’t control anymore so I’ve let go of everything I once believed was important.  I trust my Self now, and I’m going with the flow, surrendering, letting go.

 

It’s all I can do.  I’ve rooted out the core of that pain cycle I was in for over 60 years, that primal wound I suffered in childhood and all those defenses that came later as I tried to survive with that open rift that took root inside of me and that I worked so hard to try and deny.

 

I’ve asked for help, from Source, from family, from my Higher Self, from every Galactic in the neighborhood so I can deal with all immediate problems that have queued up for consideration since I let myself know that I’m open for business- the God business – the business of rectifying my Heart Center as the True North of my being.

 

The Heart Song for November 10th 2012 is  WHY WE SING by Kirk Franklin.

Here are the lyrics so that those who dont understand WHY we have Heart Songs, can.

 

WHY WE SING

 

Someone asked the question

Why do we sing?

When we lift our hands to Jesus (Osiris, Buddah, Jehovah, ect)

What do we really mean?

 

Someone may be wondering

When we sing our song

At times we may be crying

And nothings even wrong.

 

I SING BECAUSE IM HAPPY

I SING BECAUSE IM FREE

His eye is on the sparrow

Thats the reason why I sing.

 

Glory

Hallelujah

Your the reason why I sing

 

Glory

Hallelujah

I give the praises to You

 

Glory

Hallelujah

Your the reason why I sing

 

And when the song is over

We've all said amen.

IN YOUR HEART JUST KEEP ON SINGING

AND THE SONG WILL NEVER END

 

And if somebody ask you

Was it just a show

Lift your hands and be a witness

and tell the whole world

NO

 

AND WHEN WE CROSS THAT RIVER

TO STUDY WAR NO MORE

WE WILL SING OUR SONG TO JESUS (Osiris, Isis, Jehovah, Allah, ect)

THE ONE WHOM WE ADORE.