not willingly investigating, inquiring into ones experience
is the identification with ones egomind, it's conditioned unconscious
reactive responses towards all that is. the root of it
is an identification with ones unconscious reactive conditioning
with the ego's fear of the being , being the love they are.
within this fear, is pain, suffering, the desire to be
all that the being is not and inevitably eradicate all existence.
ultimately leading into
the delusion of superiority , through controlling the experience
overall and a focus on the absolute at all times, with the
identification of complacency in accepting ones thoughts and
emotions,ignoring the feelings that point to a deeper
experience, and thus a continued delusion of self sabotage.
what follows the self sabotage, are temper tantrums, hurting another,
flipping out, rebellious , chip on ones shoulder, about being
willing to truly listen to whats being expressed to you, and
through you. a complete and total neglagence towards the love
of the being, a disregard for all life as it is, and a simple
usage of all life for personal gain. in this there is selfish
behavior in every direction. its also called psychic vampirism.
where a being will come to you due to your vibration , and
simultaneously do all that they can to disprove the truth
of whats going on, through their identification with
their ego's unconscious reactive conditioned desire to uphold
its truth to be the truth as it is, and disregard all thats
been shared with the being within. aggitation, irritation,
words that always express the desire to get away from it all
someway somehow.
theres also the dictation of another being oweing you this or
that. always a projected obligation to fulfill, always projected
expectations that the ego has for the self, and all life. always