These ought to be just footnotes to what is really important right now, which is to grasp and understand the depths of your own self, or to grasp and understand the depths of your own experience of reality, the two being one whole truth in experience, but alas, apparently divided and contradictory realities in language and thought. For many, however, these issues are not so much footnotes as the necessary a footbridge to that very problem, because worry and the illusory struggle for control over your reality lies between you and a full understanding, thus a full possession, of either yourself, your life or your reality…
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What you seek to control in your life is controlling your life. Haven’t you noticed that?
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Worry and try to control…I’d be lying if I said these are tendencies I struggle against. They aren’t. I have learned that it is never, never useful or liberating to worry, and such an insight saves me a vast amount of inner tension and energy. If you can secure this truth for yourself – and the truth demands not just the mental understanding but the experience which affirms it – then worry can begin to fall away: never will you solve the problem of worry if you think the problem is outside of yourself which the worrier always does.
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What do you actually control? Do you control the texture, temperature, duration of your experience or your body or your life?Do you control your fine movements? Do you control even a significant portion of the minutia of experience? What do you really control but for the yes or the no, reaction or else the non-reaction? You control nothing but your non-reacting to the world, let me tell you that much for sure.
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