DEEPLY AWAKE – WHAT WOULD YOU CALL IT?
I am a much different creature than I was only a week ago. I know that, and everyone I encounter knows it. I walk into a room, and people ease. I want to see people whole, and I do, and it's fun to walk around in a no-shame zone. I like it. People respond very well to the absence of shame. It's like a little light goes on in their eyes when they get it, around me. There comes a little spark of unexpected permission, and then, there it comes, there it comes shining forth, the naughtiness dispelled, and then, for a minute or maybe even longer, we are in a safe place, and we are just two folks who just know something nice, and the two of us are saying this to each other, over and through and under what is being said are done: You can't do it wrong. You are awesome as is, just like this, and You're pretty funny, and, by the way, You're awfully good looking.
And I like it. And others do too.
Now, this peace has been accompanied with visions and lots of awesome light shows, for which I will always have deep gratitude. I made it plain about two weeks ago: BE OBVIOUS. I put it out there that from here on, I want to KNOW what is going on, I want to be TALKED TO, I want lots of visits and talking, and I want as much slidy magic as biggermind knows I can tolerate without having to check into a psych hospital. I won't have to go to the hospital if I know what the fuck is going on so, big as day, I declared that I want it hard and I want it fast, but I want it all subtitled.